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Well, Here I am, on the last day of my project and the conclusion of my experiment.
I have learnt much within these past 10 days, things about the world, society and indeed myself.

First, a quick recap on what happened after day 5.
As you know, I went on a trip with my family to celebrate my moms 50th birthday.
We went to a lodge in the mountains and I slept like a baby all the way there.
I have found that I always have a constant level of fatigue no matter what I do.
We unloaded and had a few drinks in the freezing cold night.

The next day, we explored the town that kind of reminded me of South Park and I gathered some gifts to bring home.
Some of the towns people, though very friendly were noticeably curious.
After some shopping and some lunch, we went back to the lodge and I had a bath.
Before I did this however, my family kindly asked if I were to take off the suit so that we could better enjoy our vacation.
I was extremely hesitant at first, fearing that it could jeopardize the integrity of my research however, after a while I agreed.

After days of wearing the suit, the light and foreign feeling of bathing was more than welcome.
When I got out and got dressed, I felt oddly good. Even though the suit did little to change my physical appearance
I did feel much better about myself and what I had accomplished so far. I felt faster and stronger.
After we went for supper, we want back to the lodge and had a little party and went back to bed.

After a tour of a beautiful mountain range and lunch at a hotel, we made a large meal and had a party in my moms honor.
After a night of drinks and food and movies, we got some sleep for the impending drive back.
Three hours after we set off the next day, we arrived back home and after a family get together, settled in.

So we arrive on Monday and I again dawned the suit and pack.
It felt both uncomfortable and familiar at the same time and I was back into the feel of it in no time at all.
Two days of work and collage in the suit subsided and here we are. Full circle.

Though entirely unplanned, I did in fact learn something from prematurely taking off the suit.
First off, I am no longer anxious about the suit.
I used to use it to enhance my long walks and I always felt a sense of dread before I did them. Now, I do not.

Now the whole point of the suit was to illustrate how far people will go to achieve the body ideal.
I took off that suit for my family. I set aside my quest for the body ideal so that I can enjoy my time with my family.
I think that that says something important. I thought that by taking off the suit, I would be giving up, that I wasn't strong enough to wear the suit through everything but I was wrong.
I believe that is was my own strength that allowed me to take off the suit and set it aside for a while so that I could have fun with my family. I would be fine without it.
Sometimes, you have to find a balance between thing so that we may a prosper and sometimes the ones that are closest to us can help us find that balance.

I am thinking of using the suit more often and taking my dog for a walk though I will not obsessively wear it any more.
Looking back at my journals and video logs, this experiment has been very enlightening to me and I hope to you too.

I look forward to seeing what you guys think.

Thanks for reading.
Hay everyone.
Sorry for the late update, I was just exhausted after yesterday and went to sleep early.
Now to give you all the play by play from yesterday.

So I arrived at collage, suit and back pack in tow and headed straight to the class room.
I had to study till 2am the previous night to get ready for my test yesterday and when I got there at 8, all I wanted to do was sleep.
After some extra studying, I wrote the test at 9 and was surprised when the moderator didn't comment on my outfit. She must be quiet understanding or trusting.
I then went through the rest of my day with the bag on my back and found that I could indeed get used to it.

After work, my friend Bianca and myself went to a pool hall to play a few games.
I could see that both the staff and patrons of the bar were quizzically looking at me though I know they meant no ill intent.
I had found that the weights had restricted my movements so much that for the first time, Bianca was able to beat me in a game of pool.
I got my title back though and won the next two games.

The moment I sank the 8 ball and won for the second time, a thought occurred to me.
Through out this experiment, I had used my strength and mind to move around despite the weight and pain
but now I know that by living with these things, I had learnt a modicum of self control.
The aiming and cutting of the pool stick, how much force I should use, all while having this heavy and sweaty suit on.
What I am getting at is whatever you carry in your back, you can control and harness with the right amount of strength and self control.
Just a thought.

I am going on a trip with my parents this weekend so I may not be able to post new updates but I will continue to research and record my finding and thought.
I will post what I find when I get back.

Looking forward to seeing what you think.
Thanks for reading.
Well, where to begin...

I went to school today to attend a meeting with my group members for an unrelated project
and since it was a public place with big chairs, i was able to finally utilize the back pack I have prepared to bring my weight up to 100kg. Needless to say, I need more practice with wearing my "worries" on my back. I am thinking of implementing a walking regiment every day from now on in order to get my body used to it.

The up side is my body is now fully accustomed to the neck and wrist weights as well as all the extra clothing I have on. The downside is that this is counter intuitive to the purpose of the experiment. I need to go heavier, work harder and go faster to gain any physical response.

This stems from when I took the suit off today to have a bath. It was a curious feeling, as if I was shedding my own skin. Ironically uncomfortable but necessary. I guess it could symbolise the abandoning of the pursuit of the body Ideal. It is important to know what you want, when you have achieved it and when and how to stop. I believe I believe that some Anorexic people may have this problem. In my case, I do not think I have achieved my body ideal. When I look in the mirror, I do see room for reasonable, realistic and healthy improvement. Now that I have the suit back on, I feel strangely whole again, however uncomfortable I might be.

I have also had a thought when it comes to the body ideal in terms of media. Most commonly, I hear about how photoshop, plastic surgery and health threatening lifestyles have sculpted the "perfect body" for the modern woman to aspire to. All of this, I feel, is true though it is a half truth. I believe men are also presented with an unrealistic body ideal much like women are. At a young age, girls had Barbie, slim and attractive, and boys had He-Man. Now we women have super models and celebrities and men... we have The Hulk and Titan Eren... :iconhulksmashplz: :iconerentitanplz:

I could elaborate more on all this but I have a test tomorrow on Hysteria and Anorexia. Food for thought........:iconicwhatyoudidthereplz:

I look forward to seeing what you guys have to say. Feel free to share these journals with people you think would be interested.

Thanks for reading.
Hay everyone.

Day 2 of my 90Kg experiment and I don't really have anything new to report.

I am getting better used to the weights around arms and neck and my layers of clothes do not seem to bother me that much anymore.
Other than constantly having to tuck in my sweaters, I can move around with relative ease and
have become more adapt in gentle and controlled motions in spite of the weights on my arms.
Also the pain and discomfort have subsided a little and I feel I am starting to properly "acclimatize" to my situation.
Sleep also come relatively easy to me if I make sure my neck weight doesn't constrict anything important.

Interestingly, it seems that my daily life is starting t revolve around this suit.
I often entertain the idea of stitching the suit together into one piece and never taking it off. Only adding to it...
If that is because of my dedication to this project or a possible deeper meaning, I am still not sure yet.
I am however starting to feel the benefits of the suit with Regards to my Id and Super Ego.
I feel proud that I have gotten this far on this path to the "Body Ideal" and revel in my strength,
however Sisyphean, self destructive or ridiculous the concept as an exercise may be.
Could this be how extremely over dedicated ideal chasers feel?

I shall go to a full day of collage tomorrow and experiment with this concept some more.
It shall be very interesting to see what my classmates have come up with for their own concepts and how I shall interact with them.

I look forward to seeing what you guys have to say.
If you have any suggestions or questions, feel free to type them in the comments.

Thanks for reading.
Read the prologue to get caught up in what is happening.
Gravity Man Experiment PrologueHAY EVERYBODY! I'm still not dead. XD
Well, here I am. Back with all you infinitely supportive people.
I'm back and here with something a little different than our regularly scheduled programming.
You see, as my job and university work takes up the majority of my time and energy
they like to remind me that I still have a profile here that I am forced to constantly neglect.
Isn't that nice of them X3.
Anyway, on to the matter at hand.
My latest project asks me to explore the world of performance art, the theme being the Body Uncomfortable.
I am supposed to come up with a concept that revolves around discomfort, be it physical or mental.
I am then supposed to create and execute a 10 day intervention, a action that I have to do every day that will make me uncomfortable.
Thus, I have arrived at my idea.
As we speak, I am wearing my standard pair of boxers, socks and jeans, a belt and a t-shirt with the addition of two pairs of sweat pants, two sweaters, one hoodie, one beanie, one 1kg


The first day of my intervention went rather smoothly.
I decided to take an knee today and spent my time at home working on the more theoretical side of this project.
I also used the time to wear my make shift weight suit to let my body better adapt to its temperature and weight.
I could feel my heart start to pick up a little the longer I wore the suit and it wasn't long before even the most mundane tasks became somewhat difficult.

In the afternoon, I took my dog for a walk to both ensure that i got the full physical experience of the suit and to see how people would react.
As expected, people gave me second looks as if I were crazy. Little school kids whispered as I walked by and other people simply looked at me with confusion.
I though: "Maybe I should wear a sign or something..."

Some other interesting observations I made were linked to the research I did on Freud's Id, Ego and Super Ego theory.
I likened my dog to my own Id, blissfully happy during the walk (which symbolises the journey to the ideal self) and capable of continuing for hours while myself represented the Ego or Super Ego, doing whatever it is I could to satisfy the Id and rewarding myself with pride once the walk was completed.

Unfortunately, my walk was cut short when it started to get dark so I returned home.
Sweaty, hot and tired, I wished to remove the suit however now, I feel that I can become strong enough to accept the suit and weight as part of my own body and that at the end of these 10 days, I will be stronger for it. A training scene from Dragon Ball comes to mind.

Thats all I really have for you guys today however tomorrow will be far more eventful.
I shall be going to work and collage so I will be able to get far more interesting physical and social data.

I hope you all like this and feel free to open up a discussion in the comments.
Thanks for reading.
Well, Here I am, on the last day of my project and the conclusion of my experiment.
I have learnt much within these past 10 days, things about the world, society and indeed myself.

First, a quick recap on what happened after day 5.
As you know, I went on a trip with my family to celebrate my moms 50th birthday.
We went to a lodge in the mountains and I slept like a baby all the way there.
I have found that I always have a constant level of fatigue no matter what I do.
We unloaded and had a few drinks in the freezing cold night.

The next day, we explored the town that kind of reminded me of South Park and I gathered some gifts to bring home.
Some of the towns people, though very friendly were noticeably curious.
After some shopping and some lunch, we went back to the lodge and I had a bath.
Before I did this however, my family kindly asked if I were to take off the suit so that we could better enjoy our vacation.
I was extremely hesitant at first, fearing that it could jeopardize the integrity of my research however, after a while I agreed.

After days of wearing the suit, the light and foreign feeling of bathing was more than welcome.
When I got out and got dressed, I felt oddly good. Even though the suit did little to change my physical appearance
I did feel much better about myself and what I had accomplished so far. I felt faster and stronger.
After we went for supper, we want back to the lodge and had a little party and went back to bed.

After a tour of a beautiful mountain range and lunch at a hotel, we made a large meal and had a party in my moms honor.
After a night of drinks and food and movies, we got some sleep for the impending drive back.
Three hours after we set off the next day, we arrived back home and after a family get together, settled in.

So we arrive on Monday and I again dawned the suit and pack.
It felt both uncomfortable and familiar at the same time and I was back into the feel of it in no time at all.
Two days of work and collage in the suit subsided and here we are. Full circle.

Though entirely unplanned, I did in fact learn something from prematurely taking off the suit.
First off, I am no longer anxious about the suit.
I used to use it to enhance my long walks and I always felt a sense of dread before I did them. Now, I do not.

Now the whole point of the suit was to illustrate how far people will go to achieve the body ideal.
I took off that suit for my family. I set aside my quest for the body ideal so that I can enjoy my time with my family.
I think that that says something important. I thought that by taking off the suit, I would be giving up, that I wasn't strong enough to wear the suit through everything but I was wrong.
I believe that is was my own strength that allowed me to take off the suit and set it aside for a while so that I could have fun with my family. I would be fine without it.
Sometimes, you have to find a balance between thing so that we may a prosper and sometimes the ones that are closest to us can help us find that balance.

I am thinking of using the suit more often and taking my dog for a walk though I will not obsessively wear it any more.
Looking back at my journals and video logs, this experiment has been very enlightening to me and I hope to you too.

I look forward to seeing what you guys think.

Thanks for reading.

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